The barrel is shimmering black and long;
The handle is bare and rough
I can see the bullets, ready and waiting
I like the rush, that spicy taste you get in your tongue,
When you can feel the adrenalin,
You’re never more alive than when you’re almost dead
I am not a fan of Russian roulette
I’d rather fire a semi automatic and let it ricochet.
The round is loaded, how sweet the sound of metal against metal,
The gun is raised, it’s aimed and held frozen in time,
She is screaming now but I can’t hear her,
It’s breaking her heart but she’ll survive
Others are whispering, praying saying please don’t
It’s all happening but it’s between me and that dark barrel now
Because I am not a fan of Russian roulette
I am about to fire a semi automatic and let it ricochet.
The lever is pulled down, the bullet slides into place,
It’s like it sees me and takes a breath but still waits
There are people all around me, some know, others I don’t but…
My family is here, like they always have been,
That’s good, that means an audience, someone to cry and clean up the mess,
Their hands are outstretched and they are calling me, calling me
Even when they know I am not a fan of Russian roulette
And ia ma about to fire a semi automatic and let it ricochet.
It’s ready now; there is a tension about it,
Around the trigger and the firing pin,
They are hysterical now, I can feel it. It’s always been like this
The trigger is squeezed and down goes the firing pin
Here comes the bullet just for me, I close my eyes
I can hear it; I can feel it swirling through the air
That’s why I am not a fan of Russian roulette
And I am firing a semi automatic and let it ricochet.
Finally……it cuts right through me and out again,
First as always is my mother heart which is broken,
Next is my fathers pride… ha… Ha… Ever so brittle,
My brother comes right after that, he won’t stop using his fists
It barrels towards ma little sisters’ childhood, she has seen too much
It’s at my friends head now and she won’t ever trust again
All because I am not a fan of Russian roulette
Fire a semi automatic and let it ricochet.